bhagavan (2018)  106 x 127cm  acrylic on paper

2015年、snsでシャーマンと称する男と出会った。当時身体が思わしくなく、彼は治療してくれるという。後に分かったことであるが、その時の処置がアヤワスカ体験、であった。

アヤワスカは南米の植物で、ペルーの国家遺産、服飲すると強力な幻覚作用があり、先住民族の宗教儀式、民間療法に用いられてきた。 

様々なディメンション、風景を見、知識を得たが最後に苦しみ、死にかけた。その時に象の化け物が現れた。 

ガネーシャというインドの神様に似ていて、荘厳で美しくもあったが、恐ろしかった。 

彼は様々な私にまつわる卑近なことに対する意見を言い、説教され、最後は光を取るか、闇をとるか、とせまられた。その時は身体が消えかかっていたのと、苦痛でのたうち回っていたので命乞いをし、光を取ると言ってもおまえは闇に取り込まれやすい、と信用されない。 

最終的には助けられたわけたが、ここで見たことを音楽でも絵でもいいので世に伝えろ、と言われた。その後一週間は寝込んでしまった。 
この世が幻であるのを見たからだ。  

それからしばらくして、フラと入った近所の古本屋でオレンジ色の背表紙の本が目についた。手に取って見てみると、詩のような文章で、創造神が人間の姿から真の姿を現す描写のシーンで、その美に深く感銘を受けた。バガヴァーンである。規模はまるで違うが、先述した象の化け物に少し似ている。すぐに購入して、何度も読み返すことになるが、これがバガヴァッド・ギーターであった。以前からヨガもやっていたが、ギーターのことも知らなかった。全ては繋がっていると感じ、以降は大切な一冊になった。 

そしてその後度々、ガネーシャを描き、最後にバガヴァーンになった。

In 2015, I met a man who called himself a shaman on SNS. At that time, my body was not feeling well, and he said he would treat me. As it turned out later, the treatment at that time was the ayahuasca experience.

Ayahuasca is a South American plant, a Peruvian national heritage, has a powerful hallucinogenic effect when consumed, and has been used in indigenous religious ceremonies and folk medicine.

I saw various dimensions, landscapes, and gained knowledge, but in the end I suffered and almost died. At that moment, an elephant monster appeared.

It resembled the Indian god, Ganesha, and was majestic and beautiful, but also terrifying.

He gave his opinion on various familiar things about me, was preached, and in the end was asked to take the light or the dark. At that time, his body was about to disappear and he was thrashing around in pain, so he begged for his life and even if he said he would take the light, he wouldn't believe that he would be easily taken into the darkness.

In the end, he was saved, but he was told to tell the world what he saw here, whether it was through music or painting. I was in bed for a week after that.

For he saw that the world was an illusion.

After a while, I stumbled into a second-hand bookstore in my neighborhood and saw a book with an orange spine. When I held it in my hand and looked at it, I was deeply impressed by the beauty of the scene in which the creator god manifests his true form from the form of a human being, with the writing like poetry. Bhagavan. The scale is completely different, but it looks a little like the elephant monster I mentioned earlier. This was the Bhagavad Gita, which I immediately bought and read over and over again. He had been doing yoga before, but he didn't know about the Gita. I felt that everything was connected, and since then it has become an important book.

Afterwards he often painted Ganesha and finally became Bhagavan.